I try to be a good compainion

Even though i wasn't chosen I still try to be a very good companion but when i think of something else like the past school years it just hard for me to be a good companion (friend mostly) but i try my best not to be sad but I'm still depressed that people are stooping low and making fun of me as a good companion and my non verbal communication shows that I'm sad when i get picked on as a friend and it gets the best of me when you continue when people make fun of me when I'm trying to be a good companion to pretty much everyone by showing a good a non verbal and verbal communications but it always leads to me being picked on by pretty much everyone and I'm slowly starting to hate it more and more.